Adventurers get scared too

Last night the floodgates of fear flung wide. I am sitting in the audience of  LITTLE HOUSE ON THE PRAIRIE (which was less than perfect) and watching Laura Ingalls fling around in the wide open spaces of the West and cry out for adventure and I began to see myself. I am not a farmer or a homestead lady (!!!!!), but I did recognize the spirit of Laura and that stirred my heart. 

It's normal, right? On the brink of change and adventure and excitement to become terrified with questions about a new normalcy - that was me last night. What will life be like for those who aren't moving? Will things change beyond what I can foresee right now? 

I was not given a spirit of fear - NO, God commanded me to a spirit of self-discipline and power - but I still answer the call of satan and I want to cry. :) Then I do and I somehow feel refreshed. 

Today I accepted a position for TownLoafer magazine as a "marketing executive." I am very excited about this position. I believe that God will teach me abundantly about the field, I will meet some amazing individuals, and I will get to support local organizations by the work I'll do. I think that I will learn a lot of valuable things for INVEST too. Praise God for His provision. 

I expect that God will provide the 1400 more fundraising dollars that I'll need for the trip to Kenya. His grace is sufficient. His grace is sufficient. 

Those on an adventure get scared too.